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Her last breath

A week ago March 10, 2013 my Mom took her last breath. My husband, my sister, my nephew, his son and me were with her.

I am over the numbness and I’m grieving.

She speaks to me with her spirit voice (thoughts in my 3rd eye). I never had anyone so close to me cross over before. Although, my Father died when I was 3. Perhaps I’ve always felt him and never knew it. I feel my Mother all around me especially in my car while I’m driving to work in the mornings.

The Saturday before she passed I went to get my camera. Her grandchildren (some) came over to visit her. She really enjoyed her day. I took lots of pictures. But for right now I’m keeping them private. For the last 2 years I would take a picture of her and me, thinking this could be the last one of the two of us. I have that picture now. It brings tears to my eyes.

Her Spirit is gentle, warm and Oh so loving. She tells me not to cry. I can’t help it. I miss her so much.

It will take some time to get use to BEING with her spiritually.

Her memorial will be held next Saturday at Connolly and Taylor, Martinez,CA at 11am, March 23rd.

Here is the very first photo that I have of my Mom and me.
mom and me

raquelcamaral

11 responses to “Her last breath”

  1. Karen Rocklin-Weare Avatar
    Karen Rocklin-Weare

    Much love to you my friend. I love the connectivity of this early photo of the two of you. We are all connected in life and in spirit.

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    1. raquelamaral Avatar
      raquelamaral

      I really feel the connection, Karen. Thank you. <3 to you, my friend.

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  2. Ana Maria Romero Avatar
    Ana Maria Romero

    Raquel. How beautiful of your spirit to have had the foresight to take the pictures of your mom and you. I am a sure believer that we all have a soul or spirit after our mortal live. I am glad your mother is with you in spirit. Your are blessed to be able to feel her around you and she was blessed to have a daughter that loved her.The picture that you posted reminds me about your birth. I know the family was so exited when you were born. I was just a child but still remember all the hallabaloo around you and your mom . It was a very special time. You are a very special person Raquel. Love ya.

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    1. raquelamaral Avatar
      raquelamaral

      Do you recognize the house in the picture? I also have a photo of my Father holding me in the same place. Love you my beautiful cousin.

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  3. LuNA. Avatar
    LuNA.

    Raquel, this is a very special time, painful but special. Spirit is always with us. We eac have a very special Spirit Guide assigned to us at birth and stays with us our lifetime. You mothers Spirit Guide helped her cross over. Your connections is a testament to the Spirits breathe around us. You are very connected with your Mother and she with you. Look for her in messages sitings of feathers, pennies, silent inner wishpers. Beautiful picture.. Most memories will live in your heart & soul. She is with you, all of you. Tune-in and listen, they will hear her too as she hears you. Much peace & support on this part of your journey. LuNA.

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    1. raquelamaral Avatar
      raquelamaral

      Thank you LuNA. She is able to communicate with me as we talked about before she was dying. I am able to communicate with her through my 3rd eye.

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  4. DananCrystle Avatar
    DananCrystle

    Beautifully written. I still miss my mom. I feel her around me in many ways, but its still not like going over and spending a day with her just BEING together. Love Crystle

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    1. raquelamaral Avatar
      raquelamaral

      You’re right. I can’t. My free time won’t ever include spending time with her. That is so sad.

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  5. Mary Rankin-Trotman Avatar
    Mary Rankin-Trotman

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings about your mom’s transition into the spirit world and your response to her. It is beautifully written and the love that you both have for one another shines through so well in your words.
    Know that I am with you in your grieving and remember always she is just a thought away. Your mom will be with you always and giving you more love along the way. May she rest in the angels’ arms and continue to shine in the universe brightly. May God continue to bestow his love and blessings on both of you.

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    1. raquelamaral Avatar
      raquelamaral

      Seems like Mary I can’t stop sharing my feelings. I’m glad I have this blog to do so.Thank you for your sweet comment.

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  6. Realm of Miracles Writer Avatar
    Realm of Miracles Writer

    May you find peace during this sad time in your life. Nothing else in the world can fill the spot like your mother. My mom too is going through health problems. I can’t think what it will be like not to be able to call her again.

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